First 'real' post of the season, let's start with something light. I could easily write about higher dimensions or the concept of God right now, but I think it will scare people off for the first time. So here we are, welcome to my mind palace. Disclaimer : Reading these posts could make you fall asleep in the first minute, or could keep you awake until dawn. Suit yourself first, then let's start.

The inspiration for this post actually comes from my chat with a best friend of mine. Long story short, it was just an early 20s love story, which ended up with my best friend had a miscommunication with someone (let's call him/her 'C' onwards). My best friend (let's call him/her 'A' onwards) planned to speak with C about the truth, tell C everything (s)he felt so there would be no miscommunication afterwards. And these are three lines I came up with :

once you learned about the truth, there is no going back.
knowing the truth also means using it to change how you judge someone.
are you ready to take that responsibility?

 To be honest I have totally no idea where did that thing come from and I ended up thinking about those lines for nights. Most people consider truth as the pinnacle of understanding a situation.  But, is it really necessary to know the truth for every single situation?

Let me ask you a question : how do you know someone new? You could just meet him/her somewhere, you exchange names, hobbies, and so on. Or you could know someone from other person. I really want to talk about the second one. How do you make sure that everything you learn about this person from your acquaintance is the same thing as the person itself thinks?

Judgement. Judgement rules our relationship with everyone. It's totally biased from one person to the other, and there is no single way you could make 'the absolute' one. Some people say "some things are better left unsaid," and I am totally agree with it. Let's say you have a relationship with someone that really care for you and would do things that most people won't for you. I often use word 'relationship' not only to describe the romantic one, but also colleague and friends. You have a really good judgment about him/her, and you both totally get along.

Now comes someone who has totally no idea about your relationship with him/her, and (s)he said that your best friend is a total a-hole, who just keep using people for his/her own good. How will you react? Will you change your judgement? This situation is not rare at all in our society. You feel the peer pressure to change your perspective, despite all your personal judgement. You start thinking to yourself, "which one is the truth? is (s)he really care for me, or is there a bigger reason behind it?"

The problem is : both could be true, and there is no single way for your brain to take only one judgement and throw the other away. It's already in our human nature to take opinions from everyone, despite they are making us harder to judge someone. By knowing the truth, our brain is forced to do something it can't : make a decision with an absolute certainty.

I think you could already see the paradox of making decision. You think you judge people only by feeling, or do you think the other way? Feeling and mind work together, but most of the time they deny each other. I've read somewhere that there is actually some kind of therapy or a practice so you could neglect one of them, but i personally think either it's actually just a trick for your brain to think so, or if it actually works, it defies the nature of humanity.

There is no absolute judgement, every single one is a recursive function that refers to the other judgement, chained with no end. When someone tries to cut this chain, the only thing that will happen is it breaks.

Knowing the truth is a burden, not a gift.

Feel free to change my mind.

if i ruled the world,
every man would see the world was his friend
there'd be happiness that no man could end,
no my friend, not if i ruled the world.